One Week Down

Ok, first week is done! I did lose some weight, (10) yea! I also know that week number two can be REALLY hard, meaning no weight loss; so I am thinking I will not even weight myself during this week. Why suffer the upset?

Do you want orange juice?

Gil asked me this question this morning and it almost made me cry. DO I want orange juice? CAN I have orange juice? I don't know. Is it good for me/bad for me/too much sugar?

I HATE losing weight! Do you know how long it is going to take for me to lose 20 pounds? I can't even lose a pound a week - only 1/2 a pound. I'm going to have this body for a long time. To lose 1 pound a week, I have to eat 1700 calories. That's impossible for me right now. Even if I wasn't nursing Teo it would be really hard.

THEN, Oprah said that if you go "on" a diet you have to go "off" a diet. So by eating healthy and exercising I will lose weight, but super slow. If I can just lose 5 pounds that would be a start, but that is going to take me forever! It seems that the amount of effort I am putting in, doesn't even come CLOSE to the weight loss result.

My Birthday

I was very happy with my day today. I didn't wake up sad. I felt very happy to be 37 and have a new baby. Gil made me a breakfast burrito (I told him the specific ingredients). We added turkey to the burrito for the special occasion. Then at church I brought string cheese and 3 wedges of cantalope to snack on. (I learned last Sunday that I cannot go the whole 3 hours without eating since our time is 1:00 to 4:00. I need a little lunch in there somewhere or else I just go home!). Then we went to Kabuki for dinner where I had tuna and salmon sushi and california rolls. I did have a Diet Coke, but I thought that was ok.

I did not make the angel food cake. At dinner they brought me a scoop of ice cream. It really was very good and I savored every bite. I don't feel like I over indulged. I feel good about my day. I'm now going to go to my personal gym and do the elliptical.

Dinner 7/24

We had Salmon and a Naked Fruit Salad.
It was all good.
Naked fruit= just fruit, no saucy dressing

I cut up:
watermelon
cantaloupe
pear
banana

I feel satisfied!

Lunch 7/24

I made a delicious salad:

chicken (left over from my $4.24 chicken from last night)
@2 cups of lettuce
slivered almonds
2-3 slices of cut up apple
1/4 garbanzo beans

dressing:
1 tbl low fat Ranch
1 tbl miracle whip

It was SO good.

Sorry, no picture.

Morning Blues

I woke up this morning ornery and sad. I feel a little fried - meaning my brain. I really just wanted to eat some waffles with syrup. That will make my tummy feel much better. And then I was MAD because I couldn't. Stupid! Stupid! I have to choose between a fat tummy or eating something I want. I don't like either of those two options. And then, it's my birthday on Sunday and I really want one of those delicious cupcakes from the Americana. Oh, they are sooooooo good. But I can't even have that! Because what's the point of eating something yummy if it's just going to continue to make me look fat! I feel sad for myself because I have to reject foods I have really enjoyed in the past. I'm sad I can't eat them anymore.

So I had a breakfast burrito instead and then went running.

Down for Me

That's down in a good way.

I am now 5 pounds down. Yea! 1,000,000 to go.

It IS like eating an elephant.

I am a bit ornery with a headache, but will push through.

Tennis (going late!), helping Kylie get her stuff together for her b-day party she is attending.

Food talk later!